today was a pretty pointless day. i got my hair cut at the mall and ended up getting a pair of jeans (size 6 skinny jeans! and they're a bit loose even!) and a sweater, too. and i got a soy latte at starbucks on my way out of the mall. other than that i did pretty much nothing today. and now i don't feel very well. lower digestive stuff...ugh. i've been doing really well during the day on eating what i'm supposed to and everything, but in the evenings i have a tendency to eat snacks before bed. i need to cut that out. i don't even know why i do it...tonight i mostly felt like i should eat something that would make my stomach feel better...but otherwise i don't have an excuse.
i'm feeling pretty down right now for some reason...i hate when i feel like this. it does nothing good for my waistline...or my confidence. :(

Current Mood: pessimistic

I haven't posted on here in so long...I've been keeping track of everything fairly well. I've only lost like 4 pounds total so far...slowly but surely. heh. I guess that's best in the long run. But it's frustrating because I don't see any results yet. I hate it because I have problems with eating too much...It's my comfort when I'm nervous or anxious or stressed. I just binge sometimes. I hate that part of me! I'm working on taming that though. Letting myself indulge a little, but not ruin everything by eating everything sinful in the house. Well I hope everyone else is doing well with everything!

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: regina spektor

a painted picture with a positively puzzling purpose portrays a patchwork panorama

haha i'm so bored. i'm in my hometown and there's nothing to do until nighttime when everyone gets off work. it feels weird to be back here in an empty house. this town feels so foreign to me now. and i feel so distanced from people i used to be friends with. i'm trying to enjoy it, though. my diet is going okay. i haven't been able to eat much because i'm staying with my stepbrother (not much in the house). and i'm trying to avoid carnival food (i had some kettle corn and lemonade yesterday, but couldn't stand the idea of cheese curds and funnel cakes...) well hopefully everyone else is doing well and has a good weekend!

Current Mood: bored

If you haven't seen on the news, a bridge collapsed on I-35 W in Minneapolis over the Mississippi River. I go to school right by there. I have family and friends near there and I was so worried for everyone's safety. One of my loved ones (or myself) could have been a victim of this accident. It's really scary to think about it. Please give your thoughts and prayers to the victims and families of this tragedy.

Current Mood: worried

So I can't sleep right now. I laid in bed for a whole hour and didn't fall asleep so I decided to get up and eat something (a bowl of cheerios) because my stomach was growling (probably why i couldn't sleep). but i don't get it. i ate about 1500 cals today. i shouldn't be very hungry. hmm. weird body. anyway. on another note, i've lost 2 pounds now officially! woo! i'm at 138. and i weighed myself at night. so that's pretty good if you ask me. anyway, i'm going to go try to sleep now that i have some food in my tummy...

Current Mood: cranky

I didn't post yesterday because my computer was being a little goofy. i did fairly well though and i have been using the website www.sparkpeople.com to track calories and everything. i'm really liking this site. i suggest that anyone who hasn't heard of it or tried it to check it out! today i went for a 16 mile bike ride and did a pilates video. anyway, here's today's stats:

Calories in: 1600

Calories out:
BMR: 1480
Basic 555
Exercise: 640
Total calories out: 2675

Total calories out today: 1075

Current Mood: optimistic

Today felt like a really long day, even though it really wasn't. I went for a bike ride right away when I woke up this morning. Only went about 12 miles, but I was sore from a strength workout I did yesterday. Then I had breakfast, got ready for work, and hung out with my mom for a bit. I had to drive my mom to a friend's house before going off to work. It was a fun day with the kids, although it was really really hot. I did coloring books and drew pictures with little Rachel, the three year old (4 years old in about a week), for like 2 hours while the littlest one had his nap. Then when he woke up I struggled to get him dressed and took the two of them out for ice cream at Cold Stone. I didn't get any for me, so that was good, but I did have a few bites of little Elijah's sorbet. Then get got back to their house and I chased Elijah around for a while while Rachel watched the ending of a movie. I came home and helped make dinner, which was meant to be eaten on the sailboat, but the lack of wind kept us home. So overall it was a good day. Here's the stats:

Calories in: 1400

Calories out:
BMR: 1480
Basic: 555
From exercise: 700
Total Calories out: 2735

Total calories lost today: 1335

Today's stats:

Calories in: about 1800

Calories out:
BMR: 1480
Basic: 555
From exercise: about 500
Total calories out: 2535

Total calories lost today: 735  : (

I haven't posted a real update on here in a while because I've been doing crappy. Being too lazy and eating too much. Blah. On the plus side, I tried running yesterday for the first time in like 3 weeks. My foot still hurt a bit, but I think it was good to try. Hopefully it won't be long till I can get back into it. Today I worked and I also biked 24 miles. (I hadn't biked since Saturday... :-(  ) Here's today's stats:

Calories in: about 1800 (high, but at least i counted today!)

Calories out:
BMR: 1480
Basic: 555
From exercise: about 900
Total calories out: 2935

Total calories lost today: 1135

the past two days have been shit. i have been lazier than a slug and eating loads of food. blah. i need to be remotivated. i think i'm getting myself into a slump again. it doesn't seem to take much for me. somebody help me!

Current Mood: lazy